And away we go...

So I got a job and you'd think I'd be happy about it. I'm finally going to be able to start rebuilding but no everyone around me is just shitting all over me. you were right about so many things. you were right that my dad didn't give a fuck about me, you were right that no one in my family did.  they are just as bad as you, just as bad as your family and it's not wonder why I stayed in the relationship with you for as long as I did, I had no one to turn to, no one to talk to and now I have no one still.  we should all be happy that I got a job but no one is.  Two duffle bags, that's all we have, that's all we came with and no one knows what it's like to lose everything and have to start all over again. They think they know what they would do, they think but until they are truely in that situation they have no fucking clue. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to hear their stupid advice I just want to be alone. I'll figure it out on my own...once again...you don't need to help me no one does.  lisa will do it alone again, cause that's what you all want. you either want to break me or want to watch me suffer.  people around me with too much fucking free time, too much money on their hands and they all seem to think because they weren't "stupid" enough to get themselves into the trouble that I did that they shouldn't have to inconvenience their life at all...and whatever let them have their fucking lives...from now on we'll all just live in this superficial fucking world were we neve rmention hardship or heartache or anything like that.  We'll talk about the gym, we'll talk about the house, we'll talk about stupid mindless bullshit just so we can satisfy everyones need to just life a meaningless existence where nothing ever goes wrong...how fucking truman show of you all. I'm just tired of being the black sheep, the inconvenience...that's one thing we had in common we both know how it feels. It's no wonder you were attracted to me, you saw the same thing they did, someone you can beat up on all day long and it's ok.  GO ABOUT YOUR LIVES EVERYONE Lisa won't bother you anymore.