I haven't counted the days since we last saw you, I stopped doing that. I stopped caring when we last saw you.  Therapy has taught me to walk away from you, as you wanted us out of your life, I didn't owe you anything.

Your mom seems to think I care about how you're doing.  She thinks that by sending me updates about your recovery will make me feel better about the situation. As if that will change the damage that you've done to me. As if that will take away the pain that I feel everyday.  As if that will take away the nightmares, the flashbacks, the images of you holding on your fist and clinching your teeth at me.  As if that's going to take away my anger.  My anger of how you didn't even care that your daughter was standing right next to me when you struck me, threw me down, stabbed me. As if you being clean for 2 months has any impact on my life. It doesn't make it any easier on me. I don't care if you're sober, I don't care if you have a job. I could care less what you're doing in your life right now.  That's how I feel, sorry if affends you and your fucked up family. Your mom is a delusional cunt and neither one of them are coming near my daughter. I'd sooner let you around her then them. They have absolutely no care in the world for me as a human being.

It's not that I don't want you to do well in your life, it's not that I don't want you to succeed, it's that I'm just not ready to give a FUCK about it. Hate me for that if you want, call me a cold hearted bitch. I'm just not ready to hear how great your life is without us and how miserable it was with us.

Your mom is fucking happy you're doing well without me, so they can blame me for your behavior. No one asks how I'm doing, no one asks if I need anything. She wanted me out of your life just like you did and I'm fucking done communicating with them. They are just as sick as you are.  They enabled your behavior they said "go ahead beat your wife we won't do anything".  So either your playing a game with this rehab, you're just doing it for court orders, or you never meant anything that ever came out of your drug enduced mind.

I hate you, I honestly do. I've lost so much in my life because of you. I was robbed of the first moments of holding my daughter because of you.  You left us in that hospital all alone. You took pictures of me holding your 2 week old daughter with a black eye cause you thought it was cool. I CAN NEVER FORGIVE YOU I CAN NEVER TRUST YOU. I can't stand the fact that you are her father, and the fact that you may come after her one day makes me want to scream. I can't handle that, I can't handle EVER trusting you with her. If you ever hurt her like you hurt me so help me god I won't know how to handle it. She is so beautiful, so innocent, so perfect I CANNOT allow you or your DRUNKEN parents to ever hurt her.  SOMEONE HAS TO PROTECT HER AND IT WAS ME. I was the only one to protect her.  They never cared, you never cared...IT WAS ME. I turned you into the cops to PROTECT HER. I wanted to give her a better life and you had no interest in her. Now you got the "responsibilities" out of your life so you're free. I know you made a huge mistake by hooking up with me....well now you have your freedom...go for it. I FUCKING HATE YOU.